I wrote before about my goal to finish the whole world cup in ski mountaineering this winter. I was so devoted to the goal so I even struggled through the second world cup with gastroenteritis. And then they postponed the third world cup and I had meetings booked so I couldn´t make it. I was so disapointed. I lost my goal for the winter and with that a big piece of my motivation and inspiration. It sucked. When I have decided to complete something, I get grumpy if something happends that makes it impossible.
When I came to our home for this winter, in Lyngen, Norway I got happier again. I love beeing home! Baking, to fill the freezer, making jam or syrop of the berries that I picked during the autumn. I love fixing things in the home. I love to read books, play guitarr and work on my computer.
Home is a special place! During the summer my home was in the alps, I had races almost every weekend. When the base is in the alps the travelling is ok, I didn´t take too many flights and we could share a car to the race. Here I can´t imagine to go racing every week. It´s to far away. And that is pretty good! It makes me spending time at home. Some months of the year it´s important for me to be more in one place. To feel really like home. And this winter it is in Lyngen.
Anyhow, my motivation is back. And decided to take the winter more easy, maybe something good comes with that too? Maybe I get more eager to do more skimo next winter?
I will still make the world cups that are left and the feeling of beeing disapointed has disappeard. Goals changes but the good thing is that it´s only a goal. And it´s easy to make new ones. And pretty fun to have space to think about new ones!
Cheers from the lovely north,
Emelie
